thought it over. for those who knew my 4th blog
(and the last blog im going to have)
please relink me.

fourth blog located here.

lol..
saturday so fast fly away.

today whole day pei fendy.
study chap6 almost finish liao.

lol.. 10am uuntil 10pm, talk to him pei ta non-stop. thank me hor!! xD

anyways, did couple of stuff today.
-created new char in maple. leveled from 1-10. lol. beginer skill very lan. but cute la.
-studied abit.

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lol.. so fast thursday over liao..

mr fightin today very sad..
yingqi most kelian.. den xiaoqui.. she loves him too much liao ba..
but if i her i oso will marry duan yanhao dat bastard.
just dunwan someone i love to suffer..
same foot steps la. lol..

i duno if preston he ok or not.. he never go online make me worry leh..
but i noe he hate me liao.. very obvious he hates me liao..
he love me will still dare to put the ilovecyn word on his nickname de..
now changed to iloveNoOne. T.T.. heartache..

no one can understand me de ba. cos no one ever got hurt by two diff ppl so badly before..
somemore.. the words they say all the same one.
both of them ended with a f__ u.
no one understand de la. two ppl i lik.. love.. so much..
all hated me..
i feel so pain..

preston 80%.. he 20%.. canot meh?
y must preston gain a big fuss over dat..?
den 20% reserved for my other guy i love so much.. canot meh??

siigh..

thursday

whole day thinkin about him de.. dats y no mood do much things..

me rach cheryl yushan bought cookies from huimin! =) *make until i bo lui -.-"*..
the choco n cream one nicer.. but still, choco mint is still chocolate. yummy.
and ima allowed to bring the tin home! xD.. can stuff my stuff in it =)

anyways..
today lesson quite boring la.

de 1st chi ws period used to study a bit..
soonhao go watch powerpuff girls. =.=...
den mr lim oso go watch sia! pro.. =.=.. so old still watch =x

geog hor... FENDY!!!!! y u go force me wake up to 12am do the mock paper!!! ARGhh.. got alot ppl nv do no scolding de sia!! evil!! =.=..

recess ate some cooky and went to find a place to talk, cos dunwan eat liao. full liao.

chinese..
2 periods; 2 chapters. SIAO AR fongster!! how can lik dis sia! skim tru lik water den tell us do zuo ye and pink book. dam her!!!
guess wad, me n rach de comic strip thing got 15/20. HAPPY liao!! no nid get so high pass liao dam happy. lol.. beat fendy n felix by 2 marks. woot.
den ar.. my compo one got 13/20 (letter writing.. i lost 3 marks for writing the letter format wrong).. den 2nd one hor!! about xinfu de hor! get 37/50 LEH. wakao! 1st time get 30+ and den get 37! whoooooooooa. i dam happy la. =x

eng the summary pract i got 16.5/25.. =.= fail english liao la. sien.

maths.. sien.. last maths lesson... T_T

art.. last art exam for finishin the whole thing.. kao.. mine dam plain la.
middle got one meat. den surroundin it got 2 fish, 3-5 apples, 3-4 pears. LOL.. slack work sia.
den i still got 10min to reshade and touch up. nice =)
but stiill la. choice of layout wrong. choice of pics wrong. so kena sai. so sure fail. =x

after sch waited for justin to finish fotocopy his thing..
ate up the cookies and did our PINK BOOK and ZUO YE.
can say do 1/2 liao. =)
after dat go home la.

go home, sleep, play, see tv.
NEVER STUDY SIA!!! ZOMG!!

to do by 12am:
-zuo ye & pink book
-history the one question ms sri gave us to summarise the whole source base
-find my sci tkbk. MUST FIND SIA.
-finish up BIO: meanin the whole of human transport and chap6. =.=
-read lit as BED TIME STORYBOOK until i sleep.

the end..
keep thinking of preston..
i feel lik i very stupid sia.

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wakaka. so fast wednesday le..

i not so much pics today..
we talk about yesterday 1st ok?
yesterday n today rachel absent.. gort fever.. get well soon rachel! will pray for u de. =))

TUeSDAY
yesterday the things happen in sch ar..
most of dem i forgot liao.. gort other things to think of..

we got night classes (specially made by mdm goo to help us. so sweet!)


lol just a lil snapshot..

did my maths.. later go play with fendy.. draw all over his hand.. lol. =)
want to see!??


so cute sia!! until today he haven rub off.

after school was the start of all my..
agony.

it all started with a hii
den went on.. wan me show u the conversation? den u see how deeply hurt i felt..
after sayign hi he started rambling about he thought he saw me at suntec on sunday.
maybe he did, maybe he faked it all up i oso duno..
den went on to how did he noe fendy's email and what he told fendy, what fendy told him.
he didnt breathe a word on it though.

DEN, he said, "anyways, i hope both of u.. ehh.. get together well"..
o.O i was lik, taken aback de.. den cos i tot he talkin about friends la. den i say ty =))
den he start getting angry liao.
he start saying dat im lyign my way though him.
WRONG. i never lie. even if i lie, its all WHITE LIES.
he go say dat he understand me too well. what!? he dun evern understand me one bit..
he later told me dat he doesnt hate me. den say wad he DISLIKE MY ACTIONS.
wad did i do?!!!
all i rmbr i did wrong was to say he took up 80% of my heart de.
(P.S. he scolded me for dat. he wanted a full 100%. wtf.)
den he said im stubborn. nv admit my mistakes one.
wtf. wad kind of guy is dis..

den he go say "we're quits"
wad? quits? to me, quits means to FORGET each other and never talk to each other again.
he go scold me say my vocab poor. =.=...
hes like saying "2 words, dun hide. u cant fool me de"
wad? i canot fool him? dots.. as if he can read my mind.
HE COULDNT. NOT AT ALL.

next he go say, "want to settle everything now?"
den i nv reply to dat question he take it as a yes. wtf..
he den say, 'hus fault is it.' ... den i reply him "70% mine, 30% his."
(P.S. fendy said dat PRESTON told him dat. meanin, its true.)

den preston scolded me for making up stuff. wtf. ok la. 100% my fault la. den socld me again.
den i start talking and COMPARING preston and fendy. guess wad that evil guy said?
"stop pretending u like him. i already know, u canot fool me. it wont work"
WAD?! he sayin in such a way
dat hes so SURE i love him. wtf?

"cynthia, i tell u 1 last thing".. ok. i replied, "yes? wad thing"
den he said, "i feel he was rite. fuck u"

omg. yet another round of.. agony.
melvin dat time said dat to me de. den cos of dat i "hated" him, so much.
dat preston. purposely wan to strike another scar on me..
my heart ache lor.
very pain.

yet another round. same words. from two diff ppl i loved..
yet again. i start to die.
inside.

den i said, "yes. that f word doesnt hurt me though. im a bitch."
den he said, "dun be so lenient la. u r a slut. =)"
wtf. bastard. call me slut. PIG.

"i knew if i do this.. i can be free. finally my heart is balanced!! ty." dats wad he said.
something wrong with his mind. ty for me calling him a faggort? ty for calling myself a bitch?

hahah. den he go say, "i waited. yes i waited. but, u nv give me a chance. y shuld i do dis?"
den he put happy face say "i noe u feeling hurt now. sorry. i do dis for u. forget me, find a new guy."
ok la. one simple lie can put it all across anyway.

after a while, i was talking about the diff diff things y i hated him, u guess wad he said?
"nice flaming there."
wtf? aint he flaming more? bastard.

loser.

TOTAL faggort.

total sucker. far worse den a cat.

I CANOT STAND HIM.
sadistic guy seh. -.-...

wednesdaY
uh hurh. =.=... bad mood liao la.
disrupted mt blog typing by some fags in the class. spammers.
"powerpuff girls so GAY".. lamers sei. dey demselves all gay if dey actually watch dat dam show.

anyways. was another lame day.
wan cut liao la.

snapshots today:


everyone rush out of hall. MR singh no power. pro-ed.

feelin so.. IRRITATED OF EVERYTHING.
heheh. dun care wad ppl say liao la.

nigel is a loser.
total loser who calls ppl names and think hes SOOOo great.
__
daniel neh? no life de. follows nigel lik a dog.
get a life la, some of u ppl inocent de. wan to be famous den follow a total loser.
den u ppl go call some good guys loser? __

joel aint a loser. hes a good friend
fendy aint a loser. u ppl suck. he dont. u ppl dun understand wads real friendship
azri? dots. evern to yur friend u call him a loser. azri treats u all like friend u all treat him lik enemy. suckers.
kaiwei? no he aint a loser. u ppl are. ppl hu understands wad are true friendships are ppl hu u call losers, den thrown aside.
look at cat. he treats u "cool" ppl like gods. den u ppl neh? treat him like shit. u losers.
ppl hu wan to be yur friend u go anyhow treat dem. as if dey toys ar.
look at the others.
alex neh? u all treat him lik cold cold de when he did so much to u all. =.=..
learn to appreiciate yur friends can.
ppl all wan get close to u ppl cos they think u all so "cool". lamers seh.

someone ouught to make a group to understand e outcastes of the class. dey are all treated like shit. apprieciate wads dere for u or one day u might be just one of dem. understand and get wad i say u bastards. call ppl names aint yur life. instead of showing pride, yu're destroying yur life.

lol. aiyoyo. i will be happy if u "cool" (ohyes, SOOO very "CoOoOoL") ppl understand the outcastes of the class.

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monday

kao..
another boring day...
start of week. T_T...
alot hw oso.

sch ar. dam sian de la.

FT admin; some idiots went to steal the duty roster de names away to "run' away from duty sia.
dam dem la. see how much i nid to do FOR THEM. better be grateful sia. =.=

maths ar. walou! suddenly i blurblur den WHOOSH 7 chaps suddenly revise finish.
DIAO!!! my brain wan BAO liao lor!!!!
aiyah.

skip the rest la. chem was boring lik crap.

den english summary. diao.

den fong class she TELL US DO LETTER WRITING FOR 5MINUTES.
shit her sia. =.=..
mdm fong had officialy became a vulgar word.. proclaimed honourably by gabriel of sec2c. =x

anyways.....
went to rach's house to study.

aiyo! shuld take photo of rach's room.
I LOVE HER ROOM NOW SIA.
i wished, i wished, i got a new room.

xiu siang lor.

anyways.. rachel's mom bought us chicken rice!! yummy =))

after doing some geog mind maps jamie n rach went to tution i went back to school

just to deliever jamie's compo. [which she forgot to put in box]] ..
see =) i so kind xD jkjk la.

ppl look at me lik i some sia0-siao de ren.

walking home halfway got stomach ache ~.~ pain!!
also got fever..
almost faint under hot sun. =.=..
i better do smth.

go home nv study a bit..
HELp!!!

preston change his msn nick liao.
my heart ache so much so much..
but i dunwan tell him la.
he himself keep saying he wan a chance wan a chance
but den i dunwan keep hurting him anymore liao.
den i wan him concentrate on studies. pray for him go triple sci.

jiayou.

deardear.

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SUNDAY

haha! its finally sunday and....
i haven frigging study one bit. dam it.

to do..: mock papers. sci ws. =.=..
went to my grand parents house.. ppl dere so noisy de. den dey stupidly treat us all like ghosts.
only care for themselves. -.=...

den went to suntec. boring lik siao.
cos go dere too many times. -.-..
no parkin lots so have to rush here rush dere to prevent getting wheel clamped. -.-

after dat go macritchie again =.=...
my father nida pay his kayakin grading fees.
and he went kayakin AGAIN. while me n my sis, who dunwana kayak, decided to sit around.


LOOK at the pretty water.


my sis and i foolin around =.=..
my sis ar. smile until lik dat de.
no wunder ppl say i look older den her INSTEAD.


we saw monkeys monkeys!!


its so close!! =))


the sun have one black dot!! my camera spoil i think!


see!!! my pic spoil cos of the stupid glare of the sun make one BLACK dot on my pic.
darn the camera. canot withstand sun.


here is, my father. pro-ed. =)

anyways;
when going home saw some ns ppl trying to practice shooting. dey using TOY GUNS!! LOL!!
den i was laughing at one guy seh, den he laugh back LOL.. =.=...

anyways..
come home slept 5hours STRAIGHT. zomg!!! my time wasted!!

T_T.. tmr gona mug. mugmugmugmugmumgumugmugu
MUG.

bb. =)

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one week over ler. =(..
8 days after he throw me into loneliness.

thursday:
was so stressed cos nid to do GEOG ws, MATHS tkbk, CHI pink book +zuo ye, bio mindmap..
its just so many things..
feel so stressed..

friday:
school end early. too stressed... =((..
he talked to me again.. but den i talk very cold to him.. =(..
den hor.. he asked me.. whether i still love him.
but i also duno de.. =(... so i say halfhalf..


SATurDAY:
i nv study.
dam slack la me..

my father got his 1st kayak star. in 3mins. =.=.. pro hor!! =))..
he pay $3, 3min, pass. the end.
pro-ed!! =))

i see him online dun dare to talk to him.
i doubt he even noes im dere.
siiigh. =(((
he believes wad ever i say de..
i think.

i think he likes another girl oso.
i very sad.
heart very pain. T.T

...everytime i wan say someting to him always end up saying opposite de.. =((...
heart ache ar.

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hm.. today ner..?
i really never study de.. T.T..
no mood to study.. no one to study with, no body bothers whether i study or not.

~.~... today play alot..
aiyah. sch very boring.. dunwan talk about it liao.

i scared later after exams i canot go nice class.
!!! T.T !!!..

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ya!!! its wednesday so fast ler hor. =))

WEDNESDAY-**
ok.. here goes about today....

-maths ar...
die la. maths sure fail liao la.

-PE. stayed in class do some stupid P.E. test. bleahs.. he dam extra seh!!

-lit..
mmm........... ms chong gave hint liao. very obvious seh; i go study next week. =)

-bio... aiyah.. the class guys as enthu about bio as ever.. -_-"...
anyways; ms ang got bullied totally by the guy's nonsense. poor ms ang!!

-info tech. sia la. gunbound canot install -_-...
in the end play maple.. fendy dam cute sia. he and his mystic door. den make me stuck dere in hhg cos the door dispear. -_-..
after dat go zmm.. seh la!! dat mel cat tell fendy go so fast, as if he nv seen a zmm before seh. -_-... fendy la. leave me!!! =((
P.S. he really go flirt with other girls OSO LOR!!! walou!!!!!!!

-assembly.. did nothing but study a bit.
den HOD of chinese came in talk about fong. case closed... i guess. =x
we'll SEE how tmr.

-after sch got some fotos.. XD


jamies so happy dat shes taller den fendy.


and so am i =) XD.. he dam lame la. bend down JUST to make me happy.


erps. heres a more how u say ar.. sarcastic picture? =x
MUAHAhah i rule fendy by height XD


mrs tan ducked in time!! XD.. she didnt scold us for using hp. <3 her so much =))

-go home..
PLAYED GUNBOUND UNTIL 6 LAR. DAM!!! NV STUDY SIA!!!
den after dat study a bit den see tv..
ah cai yi died liao... T.T very sad.. xintong for her son lor.. cry with the tv LOL... =/


dis pic's for fendy, hu says that he dun really dat comfortable when i take off my specs.
happy liao? XD..

now ar. i intend to study as much as i can.
jiayou jiayou jiayou!

-my head pain sia.. T.T.. headache so pain so pain.. T.T.. pain pain!! T.T

sorry for being mean prest0n. i really.. canot control it de.. T.T..
i mean.. sometimes i will be normal.. den sometimes i will suddenly get so stressed dat i wan to kill off everyone near me..
but i can say very clearly now, although u canot assess this blog cos of the password...
i love you. T.T

seeing me hurting u like dis make my heart pain oso.... T.T
can u understand me..?

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tuesday

morning hor, i tot is SATURDAY lor. i was dreamin it was a saturday.
and i woke up super late -.-....
cos i was "SATURDAY LA. no nid wake up!! ummm....." den blur blur sleep again...

today ar.. school...

maths 1st. aargh another boring lesson. i realised how many things i never paid attention to. omg!!!

english was next. went tru compre.. i better buck up T.T

lit.. aiyo. boring de.. last wish got so many essay qn to do..

science.. MRS GOH IS BACK!! so hapy she recovered..
she talked to us about making decisions.. find her talk quite believable.

CE.. did some assent thingy. den got free time copy de science book from rach. =))
not like fendy la. slack.

history.. i guess, its good dat i revised. =))

maths ws period.. arghh... nid to do de ws..

after sch..
rachel and jamie are so ebil!! XD.. steal my rubber band sia. -.-" stay away from the rubber band savagers!!! arrgh!!!
dey still are not convinced i can litter sia. -.-"...

went home and.. PLAYED. argghh!! i canot concentrate!! omg!!! tmr im gona mug until phy + bio finish sia. siigh...

P.S.. TV=
save the last dance: OMG!! yingxiu and xuan yu are finally back together...
so touched!!! (*SoBSS!!!!*)..
perfect couple T.T... unlike me.... >.>

now ar.. blog lor. i going to make notes on SOUND.

to do today:
-do up SOUND notes.
-revise up basic light, heat transfer, and electricty. together with sound (and history.)
-see liao zhai today. canot miss.
-tell papa de gas leak upstairs the rent ppl make de.. (p.s. de guy hu talked to me dam shuai lor... @_@.... den saw him changing his shirt dam coo! wa......)
-finish up the dam maths ws. (if we nid to do.. OMG!!!)
-fnish everything BY TODAY. if not no sleep, no eat, no com, no nth.

to do TOMMORROW:
-FINISH UP PHY:

heat transfer
electricity+household elect safety
power****
sound****
[light]
basic (shadows)
reflection
refraction
snells law****
dispersion (tru prisim..)

-after revising all, done for e day..
-NO PLAYING COMPUTER.
-do ZUO YE, PINK BOOK, geog ws, draw art the stylised boxes, and other hw.
-see mr fightin, liaozhai, THE ONLY ENTERTAINMENT TMR PLEASE.

dats it. i guess..........

*for now. i put all relationships aside. please. i nid to study.*

P.S. sorry prest0n. evern if u send me 2 word documents.. i wont change my mind de.
and dun keep reminding me dat u slash yurself 47 times. one more time u say dat im really going to do dat on myself.
concentrate please. jiayou.

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lalala~!
the weekends are over. officially.
and the relationship of me n prest0n.. oso over le. i guess.

anyways, didnt tell u about saturday n sunday hor! =)

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dis is.. my third blog i have..
siigh. i dunwan prest0n see wad i typing ma..
so.. have to make quite alot of nicknames so that he canot google search out my blog.

-heartBr0kken lerhsx..
i din say anything about break up de...
i din say anything dat i dun love him le.
den he wan break up de...
siigh.. very tired..
i nid some freedom for now.
peace for now..

i just told him i've got a new bf. =)
but yala.. i dun have.. i still love prest0n and im never going to love another guy.

T.T siigh.. very tired..
i nid some freedom for now.
peace for now..

i just told him i've got a new bf. =)
but yala.. i dun have.. i still love prest0n and im never going to love another guy.

cos i love him cos he is him.
my special guy;; forever..
1st guy i held hands with..
1st guy i hugged..
1st guy hu kissed me..
1st guy hu hug me.
and the last guy im loving.

-heartache..xx..

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